I had a hard week this week. Lots of family 'stuff' which led to me eating more than I should have.
I did listen to the hypnosis cd a few times to re-focus me and this did help.
I didn't lose any weight this week but I also didn't put any on. I am disappointed as I felt so positive last week and I wanted an equally big loss. But I did lose an inch off my waist and an inch and a half off my hips so I am pleased there has been some difference.
I have been out for 2 runs last week and at the weekend swam 20 lengths of my local swimming pool.
Lets hope for a better week next week!! :)
Tuesday 19 March 2013
Week 2 - 11/03/2013
I am pleased that I have a weight loss of 4 pounds this week. I was concerned that I wouldn't have a high loss as I came on yesterday and this always affects my weight. But to still have lost despite this is so rewarding.
I have continued to not over eat and have listened to my Paul Mckenna Hypnosis again and it has kept me focussed. I plan to listen to it again tomorrow morning.
I have felt I am able to eat what I want and how much I want. My appetite has shrunk and I am noticing I am not eating all the food on my plate. This is normally unheard of for me so the hypnosis is clearly working for me.
Today for instance I really felt like a packet of minstrels (being on doesn't help chocolate craving) and I thought 'oh I shouldn't' but then I remembered my hypnosis states I can eat what I want when I want as long as I stop when I am full it is fine. Well I slowly ate the whole 100g bag but I didn't feel hungry for lunch so I just didn't have any and counted them as my lunch. This is also a great change for me 1) I would have inhaled the 100g bag and not eaten slowly before.
2) This would have been a starter to the rest of my binge
3) I most definitely would have had lunch on top of this.
I am getting there, I feel positive and proud of myself and it's been a long time since I felt this way.
I have continued to not over eat and have listened to my Paul Mckenna Hypnosis again and it has kept me focussed. I plan to listen to it again tomorrow morning.
I have felt I am able to eat what I want and how much I want. My appetite has shrunk and I am noticing I am not eating all the food on my plate. This is normally unheard of for me so the hypnosis is clearly working for me.
Today for instance I really felt like a packet of minstrels (being on doesn't help chocolate craving) and I thought 'oh I shouldn't' but then I remembered my hypnosis states I can eat what I want when I want as long as I stop when I am full it is fine. Well I slowly ate the whole 100g bag but I didn't feel hungry for lunch so I just didn't have any and counted them as my lunch. This is also a great change for me 1) I would have inhaled the 100g bag and not eaten slowly before.
2) This would have been a starter to the rest of my binge
3) I most definitely would have had lunch on top of this.
I am getting there, I feel positive and proud of myself and it's been a long time since I felt this way.
Friday 8 March 2013
Paul Mckenna Gastric Band Hypnosis
On Monday 4th March, I used the Paul Mckenna Gastric Band Hypnosis programme. I had already read the book a week before and felt ready to use it. Since then I have listened to it one more time and I may listen to it again today.
I am not sure if it is the hypnosis or my realisation through therapy that I had a void/hole in my heart I had been feeding with food. Either way both have made me more focussed this week and I simply don't want to eat crappy or too much food.
The first full day I found in the evening my stomach felt weird as it was used to being stuffed and in a bizarre way that felt comfortable even though I felt sore and bloated. But the part of my body screaming for food was my heart, this was hard to fight as it wasn't real hunger it was emotional hunger.
I have since learnt to recognise this feeling and when it kicks in, normally at about 9pm I just take myself to bed! My theory being if I am asleep then I can't eat!
Also I have made an effort to exercise this week. Monday I did some light jogging/running combined with a walk in intervals. I ran for as long as I could and walked until I felt I could run again. This was such a big deal for me as I would have been mortified to be seen outside in exercise clothes running. In my head I could hear peoples thoughts "Look at that fatty all red and puffed out, trying to run, hahahaha.'
Now I just focus on what is in front of me and the music I am listening to. I went out again the next day and then I had a days rest and the next day as my legs were sore I went for an hours walk instead of a run. I am lucky as I have a nice riverside walk that goes on for a few miles near my home. This is a lovely place to walk/jog/run. Anyone on this path is either walking their dogs or doing the same as me so I felt safe to be there.
I'd had a Hen Do last weekend so when I weighed myself on the Monday I weighed more than I have for a while. I instantly gave myself a telling off, how could I have let myself get to this size? At 5ft 1 I do not carry weight well and I knew at this point I needed to get focussed.
Also when I realised that I had this void in my heart that I was filling with food my counsellor spoke about how I eventually will be able to fill that void on my own with love for myself. If I am going to love myself I need to stop filling my body with junk food and start exercising and eating proper set meal times, no binging and take care of myself.
Paul Mckenna's Hypnosis seems to be working for me so far. I am looking forward to my first weigh in next Monday morning. I'll keep you posted!
I am not sure if it is the hypnosis or my realisation through therapy that I had a void/hole in my heart I had been feeding with food. Either way both have made me more focussed this week and I simply don't want to eat crappy or too much food.
The first full day I found in the evening my stomach felt weird as it was used to being stuffed and in a bizarre way that felt comfortable even though I felt sore and bloated. But the part of my body screaming for food was my heart, this was hard to fight as it wasn't real hunger it was emotional hunger.
I have since learnt to recognise this feeling and when it kicks in, normally at about 9pm I just take myself to bed! My theory being if I am asleep then I can't eat!
Also I have made an effort to exercise this week. Monday I did some light jogging/running combined with a walk in intervals. I ran for as long as I could and walked until I felt I could run again. This was such a big deal for me as I would have been mortified to be seen outside in exercise clothes running. In my head I could hear peoples thoughts "Look at that fatty all red and puffed out, trying to run, hahahaha.'
Now I just focus on what is in front of me and the music I am listening to. I went out again the next day and then I had a days rest and the next day as my legs were sore I went for an hours walk instead of a run. I am lucky as I have a nice riverside walk that goes on for a few miles near my home. This is a lovely place to walk/jog/run. Anyone on this path is either walking their dogs or doing the same as me so I felt safe to be there.
I'd had a Hen Do last weekend so when I weighed myself on the Monday I weighed more than I have for a while. I instantly gave myself a telling off, how could I have let myself get to this size? At 5ft 1 I do not carry weight well and I knew at this point I needed to get focussed.
Also when I realised that I had this void in my heart that I was filling with food my counsellor spoke about how I eventually will be able to fill that void on my own with love for myself. If I am going to love myself I need to stop filling my body with junk food and start exercising and eating proper set meal times, no binging and take care of myself.
Paul Mckenna's Hypnosis seems to be working for me so far. I am looking forward to my first weigh in next Monday morning. I'll keep you posted!
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