Paul Mckenna Gastric Band Hypnosis

On Monday 4th March, I used the Paul Mckenna Gastric Band Hypnosis programme. I had already read the book a week before and felt ready to use it. Since then I have listened to it one more time and I may listen to it again today.

I am not sure if it is the hypnosis or my realisation through therapy that I had a void/hole in my heart I had been feeding with food. Either way both have made me more focussed this week and I simply don't want to eat crappy or too much food.

The first full day I found in the evening my stomach felt weird as it was used to being stuffed and in a bizarre way that felt comfortable even though I felt sore and bloated. But the part of my body screaming for food was my heart, this was hard to fight as it wasn't real hunger it was emotional hunger.

I have since learnt to recognise this feeling and when it kicks in, normally at about 9pm I just take myself to bed! My theory being if I am asleep then I can't eat!

Also I have made an effort to exercise this week. Monday I did some light jogging/running combined with a walk in intervals. I ran for as long as I could and walked until I felt I could run again. This was such a big deal for me as I would have been mortified to be seen outside in exercise clothes running. In my head I could hear peoples thoughts "Look at that fatty all red and puffed out, trying to run, hahahaha.'

Now I just focus on what is in front of me and the music I am listening to. I went out again the next day and then I had a days rest and the next day as my legs were sore I went for an hours walk instead of a run. I am lucky as I have a nice riverside walk that goes on for a few miles near my home. This is a lovely place to walk/jog/run. Anyone on this path is either walking their dogs or doing the same as me so I felt safe to be there.

I'd had a Hen Do last weekend so when I weighed myself on the Monday I weighed more than I have for a while. I instantly gave myself a telling off, how could I have let myself get to this size? At 5ft 1 I do not carry weight well and I knew at this point I needed to get focussed.

Also when I realised that I had this void in my heart that I was filling with food my counsellor spoke about how I eventually will be able to fill that void on my own with love for myself. If I am going to love myself I need to stop filling my body with junk food and start exercising and eating proper set meal times, no binging and take care of myself.

Paul Mckenna's Hypnosis seems to be working for me so far. I am looking forward to my first weigh in next Monday morning. I'll keep you posted!